It is time for a journal (everyone please cheer)

Lots of reading today (like literally that's all I did), I'm trying to get through "The Ghost Map" as soon as possible so I can then see what the hell "Lamb: the tale of Jesus' childhood friend Biff" is about

Also, okay so I've never played Deltarune, but from what I've seen I think it's so very cool. Specifically, I can't remember the last time I've seen a main character as flawed as Kris. Most of the main characters I've witnessed are meant to be role models or are trying their best to be a good person or at the very least have kind intentions, and if they aren't then they're meant to be funny. Kris just seems to be a messed up kid who's been failed by the adults in their life, and because they're hurt they make shitty choices that hurt other people. Also, they're weird! They're probs autistic (might just be my headcannon)! They have a mischievous heart full of evil hehehe! They love their friends so much! Susie is so fucked up too. And these guys are like- the prophesied heroes or whatever.

Also, apparently my one friend(?) who shares my major is in my class yay!

Today was chill. I met an older man who lives in my dorm building- he also works here as a professor! He as an adorable cat I got to meet, and since his room is like an apartment for him and his wife, he made lunch and I ate with him. He's progressive which is great, and he teaches about early American settler history. Apparently the puritans- who conducted the salem witch trials- weren't like completely horrible. For example, they believed that everyone should know how to read regardless of gender. Also, they were called the Puritans cause they thought they could purify the church of England with their beliefs. The Seperatists (Pilgrims) shared many of these beliefs, but thought that the Church of England was too corrupt or whatever to be saved and wanted to leave it.

After that I untangled some twine that was gonna be used in the garden with friends, and then me and one of those friends went to the library and chatted about random shit for like three hours.

The hunt for internships must begin soon. And the hunt for a credit card to sign up for. And the hunt for places that allow group volunteering. Point is, there's a lot that needs to get done.

I was pretty judgemental again today, wish I could stop thinking that everyone is lesser than me or whatever. It's probably a self confidence issue but what if it's not. I'd hate it if I were like- clinically defined as a narcasist. That's so cringe....

I took the wrong bus this morning, and I was originally sad about this because it would've allowed me to take a walk that I was interested in, but then while waiting for the next bus to arrive I saw a dear and a fawn??? It was so cool, especially because it was broad daylight and I didn't know there were deer around here.

I hung out in the library today. It was night and almost completely abandoned. It was so spooky. The really cool kind of spooky. I should do it again sometime.